Tattoo

so much rain makes my heart happy i think.
i bought shoes that can not be worn in the rain.
i made up with a friend yesterday,
i cred
we talked
we listened
i died.
she answered.
i am feeling so strange getting older, things are different. like someone changed the rules while i was sleeping.

living...
love?
fear?

i am feeling anxious about my trip to India/Thailand.
i don't have all the funds.
i am starting to feel how much ill miss home and loved ones.
i can.
will everyone be here when i get back.? skype me.
..........
it seems like when one part of my life is going great the other parts seem to be falling apart.
i hate it when iv done something i wish i could take back and every time you call me the first thing i think it that you've found out...
i wish we lived in a world with out secrets with out lies.
hi nice to meet you, i am going to use you and then leave you dry.
o well then not nice to meet you, have a nice life, peace.
what if we all said what we were really thinking all the time... seen the movie?
i was just thinking at work today that i wanted to try having a completely honest conversation with my (wonderful) boyfriend. .. .. .. i would never be able to do that. i don't want to here what he thinks about all the time.. im sure im annoying and gross some times and i don't even want to think about what i would say to him with out a filter..... cant be good. but could it?
i don't think that kind of thing is a try it for one day thing, its a lifestyle choice we get to make everyday.


what energy are you sending out to people? i believe that people can feel what your sending them no matter how far away you are... so be careful cuz it will come back..
you only have so much space inside you so fill it with positive energy and then share please.
i love you.
o and i haven't ran in two weeks : )